It's me

Hello everyone :)  Sorry about taking so long to make a entry - I'm not sure this entry will be that long even  :(  depends on how much my "focus" stays in place. (Which you know of from Cindy's entry previous to this one). 

Things have been out of sorts here for me lately - been working quite a bit, hiding myself in our home etc.  Still trying to adjust to C's best friend living with us.  She will be here till at least December when she will hopefully be purchasing her own home. I really, REALLY hope this happens.  It's not that I don't like her - quite the opposite really, I do like her - She just gets on my last nerve at times and I don't like to share my time that I have with Cindy, we don't get that much as it is with both our work schedules.  I also feel sometimes like the outsider looking in, does that make sense?  It will be o.k. I'm sure.

Work has been so so - that is a story in itself, one that I really don't want to get into.

I have a new computer - it's a Dell and it's a heck of a lot faster than my old one, still figuring out the little "quirks" on the new one but I like it so far.  I have my PSP 10 downloaded on this one (YAYYYYYY) and I look forward to learning how to tag.  I have to find the instruction booklet though, it's buried somewhere with all my other papers etc.

Lares and Draco, Heathen and Kissy are doing wonderfully, Lares and Draco are still growing, filling out - later on in August they will be 8 months old; I need to get some up to date photo's and post them so you all can see.  C's best friend has two cats also but they stay in "her" room (aka my office).  They are sweet kitties :)

My best friend Terry's mom isn't doing too well - so you all say a prayer or whatever you do for her?  She needs it, bad.  She's almost died a half dozen times in the past couple weeks (her heart is severely damaged from tissue damage).  She is diabetic for one thing (Terry's mom, I call her Ma Bear) and something happened a couple months ago give or take where her organs began shutting down for no known reason and I mean ALL her organs - she came this close <~> to dying right then and there.  She wound up in the hospital in ICU and they got everything working again, but in the process of the organs shutting down, there was some very serious damage done to the tissue and the muscles of her heart.  So send/give a prayer or whatever?  It would be appreciated, She's a wonderful person and Terry is too!

Thank you for all your very, very sweet comments to Cindy's entry that she made for me...wasn't that wonderful of her?  I just ask you to please be patient with me, it will all get straightened out and things will be better.  I miss you all very much.

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This is Cindy with a update on Teresa, just in case anyone is worrying.

Hello little Teresa world peeps....(obviously this is not Teresa but her better half) Teresa has had a lot on her plate and is having a hard time focusing lately so I'm here for your daily entertainment.  Just kidding.............you can have her........well, not for keeps but here for a little while. 

Obviously, since I can NOT work a journal correctly, I've been banned from Teresa world...........so I hope the rest of the world is fine and dandy and we are still doing fine, kids are fine, and we are still alive and kicking.  Now off the keyboard unforsaken trespasser.

Me being Clumsy and Weekend Drama lol

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Good Morning everyone :)  I hope you all had a great weekend!

Cindy and I's weekend was to put it "mildly"  ~ loopy, crazy, dramatic, chaotic etc. etc.  I'm sure you get the idea!  Frankly it all started Friday, early evening ~ it had been storming all day and I had to take Lares and Draco out for a potty call in one of the lull's between storm systems moving in...they were dragging me into the backyard ~ well, there is a step going down into the back yard then a little slope before you get to it; the grass was wet as all get out and there is this one bare area where it is just slippery clay...my rear end steps in it and about the same time the puppies lunged and there go my feet out from under me, my left knee went one way and my lower leg another...soooooooo I either really did a deal on the ligaments around the knee cap or I just sprained it really good ~ anywhoo I haven't been able to put my complete weight on that knee since then, had to call off work on Saturday because of it ~ I have to be on my feet and I could barely walk. Luckily my days off are Sunday and Monday so it's given me 3 days to work on it...I'm just starting to be able to bend it without stabbing pains.  Still hurts when I try to bend it normally like the dickens.  :(  I'm supposed to go back to work tomorrow ~ going to go and try to see if I can do it.  Can't afford to be out of work at all.  So put out some good wishes for me ok?  Thanks.

The "other" drama ~ Cindy's best friend  broke up with her girlfriend on Saturday (actually Friday but we didn't get the backlash till Saturday morning really) so She has moved in here with us for a little while.  Poor Cindy was moving her stuff over here all day yesterday (Sunday) and dealing with the blow up between her best friend and her now "ex" on Saturday ~ me? I stayed out of it as best I could.  I couldn't help move anything because of my blasted knee so I felt utterly useless in helping.  I did what I could do though.  Cindy is exhausted. Mentally and Physically.  I hate drama.  I despise drama.  Cindy's best friends now "ex" is a utter youngling ~ she's in her 30's but she acts like she's still in high school and it's a sad thing.  Anywhoo AGAIN ~ it will take some adjustment, but it will be ok. C's best friend's heart is really bruised and I feel so sorry for her :(  

I guess that's "it" for now... will try to make a entry again later in the week. I hope everyone has a good one!

 

Can you believe this happened??

This is truly sad ~ and it ticks the hell out of me, don't know about you...me? I'd be kicking some serious booty, taking no names and no numbers and NO excuses...especially if it were MY spouse, mother, grandmother, sister or otherwise.  There is no excuse whatsoever for this behavior.  It wasn't just the hospital, it was the police department and the 911 people also.  In my humble opinion, the Dr's who "chose" not to treat this woman should have their licenses pulled, the hospital's pulled, the police department held accountable & the 911 operator fired.  Then I'd sue each and every one involved. Grrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

 

 

911 Dispatchers Denied Dying Woman Help

Hospital Investigated for Breakdowns in Patient Care

ABC News

LOS ANGELES (June 14) -- The case of Edith Rodriguez, the 43-year-old mother of three who collapsed in the emergency room of Los Angeles' Martin Luther King Jr.-Harbor Hospital in May and died after not receiving help, has raised questions about the quality of hospital care and left a family grieving.
"I'm angry, but at the same time I'm feeling pretty bad about her,'" said Rodriquez's brother Eddie Sanchez.

On "Good Morning America" Thursday, Frank Casco, the attorney for Rodriguez's three children and four grandchildren, said what happened in the emergency room was "a mystery," but Casco says the 911 calls and security camera video proves that many people saw Rodriguez suffering and that no one offered help.

"She was lying in the fetal position crying and no one would help her," Casco said. "The security guards were on notice that she was laying there. The police were on notice that she was laying there. The hospital staff was on notice she was laying there."

Casco also said the police officers in theemergency room that morning were more interested in checking out Rodriquez for a possible parole violation than making sure she got help.

And other families are now speaking out with allegations that their loved ones died of neglect while in the King-Harbor ER.

In March 2003, 20-year-old Oluchi Oliver waited hours to be admitted to the hospital with crippling stomach pains, according to his family. After 10 hours, he collapsed dead on the floor. No one noticed, his father, Akilah Oliver, said.
"It's always unimaginable when a child dies, but for him to die like this, as if he were invisible -- it's really tragic and it's really unimaginable," Akilah Oliver said.

Last week, federal inspectors declared that patients at King-Harbor were in "immediate jeopardy" of harm or death and gave the hospital 23 days to correct procedures or lose certification. It was the fourth time in less than four years that the hospital had received the warning.

Timeline of Tragedy

At 1:43 a.m. May 9, Rodriquez's boyfriend, Jose Prado, placed the first call to 911 from a pay phone just outside the emergency room at King-Harbor Hospital.

911 Operator: "What's wrong with her?," the 911 operator asked.

Prado: "She's vomiting blood."

The operator then questions why hospital officials are not helping Rodriguez.

Prado: "They're watching her and they're not doing anything. Just watching her."

Rodriguez had been to the emergency room on three separate occasions. Each time she was released after being given prescriptions for pain.

This time, she lay on the floor of the emergency room for 45 minutes. A security video shows staffers and other patients standing by as a janitor cleaned the floor around her.

Eight minutes after the first call, another call to 911 apparently comes from another person not related to Rodriquez. "There's a woman on the ground of the emergency room at Martin Luther King and they're overlooking her," the female caller says, "and they're ignoring her."

The operator asks the caller what she wants him to do and informs the woman to contact hospital personnel. The conversation then becomes tense as the operator lets the caller know he cannot send an ambulance to the hospital.

"I cannot do anything for you for the quality of the hospital there," the operator says. "This line is for emergency purposes only."

"May [God] strike you too for acting the way you are," the caller responds. The operator says, "No, negative, ma'am. You're the one."

The county coroner ruled that Rodriguez died of a perforated bowel.

After listening to the tapes, L. A. County Supervisor Zev Yarovslosky called the hospital's actions a moral and human breakdown.

"I hope it's a lesson to the rest of the community that when somebody's in trouble and the appropriated reaction is not to turn your back on that somebody," Yarovslosky said. "It's to put your hand out and see how you can help."

Oluchi Oliver's family is not optimistic that King-Harbor can turn itself around. "It's very hard to have a lot of patience at this point and a lot of faith that the hospital can fix itself," Akilah Oliver said.

The supervisor of that second dispatcher said his tone on the call was inappropriate. The medical director of the hospital has been ousted for his handling of an unrelated lapse in patient care.

 

meanderings of babble...

 

Good Morning everyone !

 

I hope that this entry finds everyone in good health and happy ~

 

It was a quiet weekend for Cindy, I and the pups and cats, hot and humid as blazes too I didn't want to step one foot out the door unless absolutely necessary can we say ugghhhhhh??  I can and was lol. 

Saturday for me was busy, worked a double shift and left work feeling pissed, fed up, worn out, aggravated and dispirited.  Used to be about 5 years ago (maybe less) if someone (coworker) gave me crap at work I'd just rip right into them - believe me, I didn't take prisoners, I was known for having a very sharp tongue and for overt and almost outrageous honesty - if you asked me what I thought, I'd tell you. no holds barred.  Now?  I've been trying to be sweet and nice...and know what?  I'm tired of the sweet & nice at work, at least to the one's that don't deserve it.  It doesn't help that I'm the oldest one in the whole place, on any shift & these freaking younglings (teen's and early20's) treat me with such blatant disrespect at times.  I feel like saying ~ Honey? I could chew you up and spit you out and you would NOT know what the hell hit you. (insert sigh here).  When I say they treat me disrespectfully I don't mean that I expect their complete "respect"  they don't know me enough for that, what I DO expect is the same courtesy that I give them.  Doesn't work that way and I have a feeling I'm going to have to revert to "bad ass Teresa" mode and will become known as a utter bitch, which doesn't matter to me - in my opinion if you push me hard enough to warrant having my "bitch" side turned on you then you (whoever they are) are cretins to begin with.  Know what I mean??? (insert another sigh here)

 

here I am :)

 

Hello everyone   Here I am ~ it's been awhile hasn't it?  since May 26th I believe it was.  To be perfectly frank, I just haven't felt like writing~I've been "hiding" and just taking some "inner soothing" time if you know what I mean.  I haven't written any comments in a week or so in any of the journals I visit, I haven't done anything, period.  Please forgive my laxness?  My heart just hasn't been in it.

 

Hmmmm, let me see, what's been going on with me ~ work, home, cooking, puppy duty, cat duty....Cindy is working her ass off per usual, it's been particularly stressful for her this week (and will be for the rest of this month) because her boss is in Hawaii on vacation for 7 days, so all the decisions where she works falls on her shoulders. Then next week one of her other co-workers goes on vacation, then the following week another co-worker on vacation & the week following that yet another one goes - so, the things that these co-workers do fall on her shoulders and become her responsibility.  So, what I try to do is attempt to make her "home downtime" as comfortable as possible.  She deserves it.  My Baby is such a wonderful person (tho, yes, She can be stubborn as hell too LOL) (but then so can I be ).

 

In case you are wondering about my choice of graphics in this entry~Cindy, my soul mate, my deepest darkest love of my life (for the rest of my life) ~ this past Friday, June 1st, She took me to a Stevie Nicks concert in Dallas; Stevie's "Crystal Visions" Tour and before that She took me to a wonderful dinner at the "Saltgrass Steakhouse" can we say OMG wonderful ? Stevie is truly the high priestess of rock & roll ~ she was fabulous, Cindy was sitting beside me drooling her head off LOL.  She adores, worships and loves Stevie with a passion.  Chris Issak <spelling???> opened for her, he was very good to, tho most everyone was there for Stevie and only Stevie ~ it's funny the age bracket that was the majority of the audience, in their late 30's, 40's and older and one heck of a lot of gay men and lesbians there too LOL.

She did her twirling thing on stage...She is so absolutely beautiful, you'd never know she was 56 .  Cindy got me a tour T-shirt too   neato .  She started the concert by coming out singing "Stand Back" can we say WOW?  I can lol.  She sang a few of my fav's - one being "Rhiannon" I have always loved that song...I wish she had sang "Dreams" too, but alas I wasn't to have my wish fulfilled .  I'm writing below the lyrics for "Rhiannon" and another She didn't sing "Sometimes it's a Bitch" but it's one of Cindy's and I's favorite songs so I am including that also. Also a few links to a couple of her websites.

 

Rhiannon

 

Rhiannon rings like a bell through the night
and wouldn't you love to love her?
She rules her life like a bird in flight
and who will be her lover?
All your life you've never seen
a woman taken by the sky.
Well would you stay if she promised to you heaven?
Would you even try?
And he says, "Rhiannon, Don't go."
And he says, "Rhiannon, stay."
And he says, "I still cry out for you.
Don't leave me, don't leave me."

Rhiannon rings like a bell through the night.
And wouldn't you love to love her?
She rules her life like a bird in flight.
And who will be her lover?
All your life you've never seen
a woman taken by the sky.
Well would you stay if she promised to you heaven?
Would you even try?

She is like a cat in the dark,
then baby, she is your darkness.
She rules her life like a fine skylark,
when the sky is starless.
Once in a million years a lady like her rises.
Oh no, Rhiannon, you cry, but she's gone
Your life knows no answer, Your life knows no answer.

Rhiannon....

She rings like a bell through the night.
And wouldn't you love to love her?
She rules her life like a bird in flight.
And who will be her lover?
All your life you've never seen
a woman taken by the sky.
Well would you stay if she promised to you heaven?
Would you even try? Say, would you even try?

Rhiannon....

Dreams unwind
Love's a state of mind
Your dreams unwind
Love's a state of mind
Your dreams unwind
And still it's hard to find, I know.
Your dreams unwind
And still it's a state of mind, I know
Dreams unwind
And still it's hard to find, I know
Dreams unwind
And still it's a state of mind, I know

Take me like the wind, child
Take me with the sky
Take me now
Take me like the wind, baby
Take me with the sky
All the same
All the same
All the same, Rhiannon
All the same
Baby, all the same
All the same

And he still cries out for her,
"Don't leave me now."

If you read on her "In Her Own Words"  website (link below) She explains what some of her songs were written about and how she came up with them etc.

 

In Her Own Words

Here are the Lyrics for ~

"Sometime's It's a Bitch"

Well I've run through rainbows and castles of candy
I cried a river of tears from the pain
I try to dance with what life has to hand me
My partner's been pleasure...my partner's been pain

There are days when I swear I could fly like an eagle
And dark desperate hours that nobody sees
My arms stretched triumphant on top of the mountain
My head in my hands...down on my knees

Sometimes it's a bitch...sometimes it's a breeze
Sometimes love's blind...and sometimes it sees
Sometimes it's roses...and, sometimes it's weeds
Sometimes it's a bitch...sometimes it's a breeze

I've reached in darkness and come out with treasure
I've laid down with love and I woke up with lies
What's it all worth only the heart can measure
It's not what's in the mirror...but what's left inside

Sometimes it's a bitch...sometimes it's a breeze
Sometimes love's blind...and sometimes it sees
Sometimes it's roses...and, sometimes it's weeds
Sometimes it's a bitch...sometimes it's a breeze

You gotta take it as it comes
Sometimes it don't come easy

I've run through rainbows and castles of candy
And I've cried a river of tears from the pain
I tried to dance with what life had to hand me
And if I could...I'd do it all over again

Sometimes it's a bitch...sometimes it's a breeze
Sometimes love's blind...and sometimes it sees
Sometimes it's roses...and, sometimes it's weeds
Sometimes it's a bitch...sometimes it's a breeze
Sometimes the picture just ain't what it seems
You get what you want...but it's not what you need
Sometimes it's a bitch...sometimes...it's a breeze
Well it's a breeze...it's a breeze...it's a breeze...

When I hear that song, it always makes me think and I realize how true it is...about life in general.  It's the yin and the yang of things, you know?   If you look in my favorite sites part of my journal it has the link to her personal web pages.   Know what Cindy and I found out?  That "Heart" was going to be there to the night before    If we had known that in time we would have been at that one also, being as Heart is one of our other favorite groups lol. Okay, I'm out of here, focus gone... Hope everyone has a great day, night or whatever place you are at in your life!

 

You are now entering into the "Twilight Zone"

 

Tag is by TerryAnn over at "A Girl Next Door Creation" 

 

Good Morning All

 

Well, today may actually be a good day, I must say that I'm feeling much better than yesterday; I had one of those "depression" episodes where my mind doesn't stop and keeps going in circles with the same thoughts over and over again..it is called manic'ing...I hate it.  It's very uncomfortable and all it does is send me into a deeper depressional spiral.  This morning it seems to be much, much better. I'm happy about that. <sorry if I'm not spelling all my words correctly> lol.

 

Work yesterday was the utter pits because of my frame of mind.  When you do what I do and have to deal with people and smile when you fell like telling every single one of them to "f**k off" even your coworkers it is utter hell.  Back to the Dr. thing I mentioned in one of my previous <the last one or one before that> I really need to get to one, I haven't been taking any depressional medicine because I haven't been able to afford one or the med's involved.  I plan on going to one within the next couple of weeks because I can't deal with this anymore, or for very much longer. It's purely hormonal I think...and with the post menopause coming into being with my body aging, it increases it terribly. Ok, enough of my bytching.

So, when I got home yesterday I kind of hada cleaning spree, sort of.  Got a few things done that needed to be done & cooked dinner.  Cindy helped me with the dishes which was very nice of her.

 

The "boys" are such a funny pair ~ they have these little squeaky balls that they run around with squeaking us out of house and home, there is something about the process of the squeaking or the sound itself but they start howling at them.  They will squeak a couple times, then yowl and howl, do it again over and over - it's so funny you should see it.  Wish I knew how to video tape them and put it here in the journal, you'd all be laughing yourself silly.  They are precious and so innocent still, it's a beautiful thing. Cindy at night sits in "her" chair, well, she makes these little noises to deliberately instigate the dogs into horse playing with her, well, they jump on her, on her head anywhere they can reach, sit on her head, her chest, scratching her in the process and she fusses about it (I don't think "really" fussing but putting up a show of it) and she is expecting sympathy from me, I told her that she knew she was deliberately doing it to antagonize them, so whatever happened was her fault and not to complain about it LOL.  That's another picture I'd like to get of them.  Me?  I'm the soother and calmer of the boys, her?  Sheesh, she winds them up tighter than springs and then bytches about it LOL.

Ok, that's enough for now, have to get moving and doing things.  I hope you all have a great day.

 

P.S.  I'm very sorry about not commenting in everyone's journal, again, most of it has to do with the fact that I'm stuck on dial up for the moment and it takes forever for pages to load (including my own), my lack of focus at times, or the fact that AOHell won't let me get in to comment in the first place or I'm not getting the alerts.

Everyone that comments in my journal?  thank you so very much, it means a lot knowing that you care and are there for me (the majority of youanyway).