Okay, this absolutely sucks ~ now I can't QUIT crying...(sigh)

this will make you smile ~

This is a wonderful video ~ I just wish I knew why it made me and my heart smile that it also made me cry my head off.... it touched me and made me hopeful, hope it does the same to you ~ a friend sent me the link in a email... thank you Carolyn.

 

another update :)

    

Good afternoon everyone ~

Update time for Heathen, he's such a sweetheart and I love him to dickens.  He's in a much better mood today and is trying to "walk" around more. His poor back legs are wanting to go everywhere, it's almost like he's walking on ice or something you know?  Despite the fact he has his diabetes and it is being controlled thru his diet, he wasn't eating his food, so I went to the store and got a couple cans of canned cat food and he gobbled that right up now if I can get him to drink more water!!  He's drinking but not enough I don't think.  He's giving the boys hell ROFL  he's not in the mood for their roughness and he's letting them know believe me.  I'm very proud of him.  Keep him in the prayers though ok?  he's not in the safe zone quite yet. 

It was really strange last night, I was dreaming and all of a sudden there was this gentle woman's voice saying "Teresa" a few minutes later it came through again "Teresa" never heard the voice before in my life but i woke up, went and checked on Heathen, he had gotten himself tangled up in a cord from the window blind!  So I fixed the window blind cord where he couldn't do that again, changed his diaper and went back to bed.  Is that not weird???  I think it was The Goddess getting my attention... I'd been throwing mantra's out there like crazy...She's watching out for my Baby

Cindy is apparently having a rough day at work, she called about 45 minutes ago and asked me to put 2 wine coolers in the freezer for her ~ she rarely drinks during the week or at all really.  She'll tell me when she's on her way home.

I think I'm going to bake some fresh Cod for dinner (lemon's, mushrooms, butter, white wine and fresh chopped dill) ~ salad and something else to go with it.  Not sure what.

Heading out now.

Hugz and Blessings** to all of you.

 

 

Heathen report ~ lol

                    

Thank you very much for all the wishes, blessings, prayers etc. for Heathen first of all.  It means quite a bit to me.

He seems to be ok ~ he is urinating enough I think to keep him safe, it helps that I massage his bladder etc.  his poor back legs are all out of sorts.. I'm going to keep praying, loving him & trying hard not to worry so much. Cindy says to just let it be beyond the general support I give him, that he will figure it out on his own.  I hope so.  Went and picked up the new dosage of Prednisone for him this morning on the way to work so at least I have that.

Damn it's been hot the past few days...yesterday it was 107 degrees, the day before that 103 degrees, the only thing that is saving my rear end is the fact the humidity is only at 53 percent. can we say ughhhhhh!!!

I cooked yesterday but I'm not tonight, it makes the house too warm with the oven on, so I'm making a chicken salad and we will have sandwiches for dinner. 

The weird mood at work is still going on, I don't know what's wrong with everyone.  It makes it a very uncomfortable place to work at but I'm not going to let it get to me, just do my job the best I can & go home.  Thank the Goddess I'm only on lunch shift, couldn't stand it with the jackasses that work at night.

My mind just went "blank" I hate it when it does that LOL.  It's my disassociation problems trying to raise it's ugly little head.  Those disassociation problems lead to those little things called panic attacks. ewwww.

I guess I will go for now, it will be useless to write now cuz all it will be is rambling with no sense whatsoever.

Hugz and Blessings*

 

talked to the Vet

  

 Wanted to let who cares to know (which have been most of you <smile>)that I talked to the vet a few minutes ago and She said to just continue with the prednisone twice a day, to palpitate his bladder to help him urinate, try to encourage him to eat (with his diabetes on top of this not eating is a bad thing) and that it was ok to use baby ointment on him to help with the rash he's gotten from wearing a diaper. Told her that I didn't think he was in very much pain, that he was purring still (just not as loudly) and seemed to have pretty good spirits.

 

My heart is heavy and I'm so very worried about him, I want to hover over him but I can't. 

Blessings*

Heathen update

                  

 

Good Morning all ~

Not a good night for Heathen or I   I'm really worried about him.  Yesterday he went and jumped the baby gate that's at the entrance to the hallway (going back to the back bedrooms & offices) we keep the gate up most of the time to keep the boys from going back there (Lares is absolutely fascinated by Kizmet my other baby & is always wanting to check her out, in a nice way of course but Kizmet doesn't know that ). Anyway, usually I can catch him and just take down the gate before he does it to keep him from putting pressure on his back and hips, but I didn't hear him  because I was cooking dinner and he jumped and I think he pulled something again.  He hasn't urinated since after that happened (about 4ish) yesterday and he's been very quiet (still purring of course when I talk to him) and he's favoring his back end quite a bit...he laid down in the bathroom all night next to his water bowl.. he is drinking but not eating...his food from 6ish yesterday is still there.  I got up and 2 a.m. to check on him and gave him another prednisone, will be giving him another one about 8 a.m. but right now what I want him to do is PEE!!  I couldn't sleep really last night because I was  so worried about him ~  Cindy says I need to quit giving him his catnip cuz that stuff makes him feel like he's 10 foot tall and    bulletproof   (which it does)  he's super kitty when he has his catnip.  I will be calling the vet later this morning once they open to get the vet to call me back so I can ask her what to do.  Besides I need more prednisone anyway.  I have no idea what to do...(sigh) I told Cindy I'd rather have a incontinent Heathen than a Heathen that isn't here anymore, I can take care of the incontinence, I can't take care of permanent "buh bye"  as I've said before my heart would break.  And yes I know I don't hold the market on people's love for their own furrybabies...but I'm not talking about other's ~ I'm talking about Heathen and I.  Heathen is people to me and always will be.

So please (I know I keep asking this) more prayers/blessings etc. for my Heathen?  Thank you.

 

venting, vente' ~

Debating whether to write or not to write, I feel the "itch" to do so yet I don't?  does that make any sense?  I can understand if it doesn't, believe me.

Yesterday it was in the lower 100's as far as temperature is concerned, didn't think it would ever start to cool  down...that "100's" mentioned is not including the humidity factor! can we say Ms. Teresa was a tad grumpy??? lol.

Cindy took me out for Chinese buffet last night, it was so sweet of her (she hates Chinese food) I LOVE it.. before she and I became a couple I ate Chinese at least once a week yummy.  Wish I could cook it at home more often (or at all LOL) problem with that is 1.  no grocery store around here that has the ingredients that I would need beyond said soy sauce, sesame oil etc. etc. generalities. 2. Cindy doesn't like the stuff. (sigh).  Her taking me out for Chinese was a tradeoff because she had wanted to go eat Mexican food (a food I hate <yuck> sorry Amy hon) I don't just hate Mexican food, it hates ME and I'm not really crazy about the flavors inherent in Mexican food either (Mexican to me includes "Tex Mex" or anything therein) Seafood (not all battered and fried and the flavor drowned in grease, though I do like fried catfish ), Italian, Chinese, English/Irish/Scottish/Welsh foods, Cuban,  Southern/Homecooking etc.  I think I'm going to be wondering about the net looking for Puerto Rican recipes!!  I've heard good things about that genre' of food..will check it out.

 

Work lately has been becoming a lot more stressful, the tension that is there is amazing... I'm not sure why - it's almost like everyone is miserable (I'm not on the most part except when people don't do their JOBS then I get stressed) it's been slower I do know that, same ol' same ol' nice office ladies that run you in the ground at lunch run up tabs and leave you a buck and say "the change is for you sweetie, for all the hard work you did for us"  I want to shove that said buck up the "nice ladies" left nostril grrrrrrr.  This  couple came in this past week, ran up a $60 tab, paid with a $100 bill and left me $2 ~ I certainly assisted with the payment of their lunch via my taxes I have to pay in to the wonderful government. Not to mention I again, ran my ass off for them.  I HATE people like that!!!  Readers?? TEACH YOUR KIDS THE PROPER ETIQUETTE OF DINING OUT AND TIPPING PRACTICES!! if YOU don't know? look it up on the internet   I mean, do YOU like being stiffed on your paychecks?  well, that's what it's like to me & other servers.

 

Yesterday I had to stop by this one grocery store on the way home (they had a great deal on butter LOL & thick sliced bacon) there was this "sweet" little old man sitting at the inside entrance to the store selling the local paper... o.k.  I hate the local paper, it's extremely conservative and the churches in this area have most of the town government & members thereof in their back pockets (can we say "separation" of church and state people? it's a oxymoron in this part of the country) so what's written is very rarely the complete truth.  Yes, there are some sweet articles occasionally BUT sheesh.  Anyway, he proceeds to talk me into a subscription to this said paper... I was being polite by listening to his speel, but the man wouldn't let me go! he kept harping and harping and I smiled and listened...finally he asked me one more time, would you like the paper?  I was fed up by this point and said "no, I would not like your paper"  he said, "why not?" ~~ I said "because your paper is too conservative, biased and you practice censorship at a alarming rate" (which they do)~ he said very disapprovingly "well, that's your choice" he was nasty about it... I said, yes.. it is, that's why I get the "so & so paper, they don't do it as badly as you do" and I said all of this very politely and nicely... he glared at me. I was in my head going "assh**e" grrrrrrr he probably goes the BIG church in town that has a copper dome that cost major bucks ~ gee I wonder how many homeless people that could have helped? hungry people fed? Women's Crisis centers helped? huh? huh? huh? puhleeze.

Dang I'm on a tear aren't I? LOL.

 

Waiting to see how many comments THIS entry gets ROFL.  Or the lack thereof (grinning).

And in spite of all my grumbling etc. I wish you all warm thoughts and Blessings galore**