Thursday, May 17, 2007

You are now entering into the "Twilight Zone"

Tag is by TerryAnn over at "A Girl Next Door Creation" 
Good Morning All
Well, today may actually be a good day, I must say that I'm feeling much better than yesterday; I had one of those "depression" episodes where my mind doesn't stop and keeps going in circles with the same thoughts over and over is called manic'ing...I hate it.  It's very uncomfortable and all it does is send me into a deeper depressional spiral.  This morning it seems to be much, much better. I'm happy about that. <sorry if I'm not spelling all my words correctly> lol.
Work yesterday was the utter pits because of my frame of mind.  When you do what I do and have to deal with people and smile when you fell like telling every single one of them to "f**k off" even your coworkers it is utter hell.  Back to the Dr. thing I mentioned in one of my previous <the last one or one before that> I really need to get to one, I haven't been taking any depressional medicine because I haven't been able to afford one or the med's involved.  I plan on going to one within the next couple of weeks because I can't deal with this anymore, or for very much longer. It's purely hormonal I think...and with the post menopause coming into being with my body aging, it increases it terribly. Ok, enough of my bytching.
So, when I got home yesterday I kind of hada cleaning spree, sort of.  Got a few things done that needed to be done & cooked dinner.  Cindy helped me with the dishes which was very nice of her.
The "boys" are such a funny pair ~ they have these little squeaky balls that they run around with squeaking us out of house and home, there is something about the process of the squeaking or the sound itself but they start howling at them.  They will squeak a couple times, then yowl and howl, do it again over and over - it's so funny you should see it.  Wish I knew how to video tape them and put it here in the journal, you'd all be laughing yourself silly.  They are precious and so innocent still, it's a beautiful thing. Cindy at night sits in "her" chair, well, she makes these little noises to deliberately instigate the dogs into horse playing with her, well, they jump on her, on her head anywhere they can reach, sit on her head, her chest, scratching her in the process and she fusses about it (I don't think "really" fussing but putting up a show of it) and she is expecting sympathy from me, I told her that she knew she was deliberately doing it to antagonize them, so whatever happened was her fault and not to complain about it LOL.  That's another picture I'd like to get of them.  Me?  I'm the soother and calmer of the boys, her?  Sheesh, she winds them up tighter than springs and then bytches about it LOL.
Ok, that's enough for now, have to get moving and doing things.  I hope you all have a great day.
P.S.  I'm very sorry about not commenting in everyone's journal, again, most of it has to do with the fact that I'm stuck on dial up for the moment and it takes forever for pages to load (including my own), my lack of focus at times, or the fact that AOHell won't let me get in to comment in the first place or I'm not getting the alerts.
Everyone that comments in my journal?  thank you so very much, it means a lot knowing that you care and are there for me (the majority of youanyway).

Tuesday, May 15, 2007

Wow, two days in a row!!

Tag by Donna over at "D's Designs"
Good Morning everyone :)
Just a quickie entry this morning because I have to shower and get ready for work soon.
As you might have been able to tell by the ending of my last entry my focus did that magickal vanishing act that is does all the time.  It's so strange at times, like hitting a brick wall as far as my thoughts are concerned :( it sucks at the best of times.
Anyway, work - I'm accomplishing it, but every day that I go in, or night ~ I have to fight my panic issues.  Anytime I'm around that many people or sometimes even just a couple, I have those freaking panic attacks minor or major, doesn't matter what size they are whenever they happen they are damned uncomfortable.  I take Klonopin for the panic issues, every day I go into work I take them so I don't freak out.  I will have to go to a Dr. soon to have my prescription redone because I'm almost out and that scares me to death because I know what I will do if I don't have them.  No, it's not a addiction, it's life for me. I'm sitting here right now fighting anxiety and I hate it.  But, as the graphic today says...there is always hope and as long as I have that life is durable.
Cindy and I need to go to the grocery store tonight because we didn't get to go on Sunday which is our normal day of grocery shopping.  It will depend on how she feels and how I feel also.
She will probably be out on the jet ski on the lake this weekend ifthe weather is good with her Nephew... he's a little water baby :)  She is to being an Aquarian.  She loves the water.  She wants to take the "boys" (the puppies) down there also and see how they handle the water ~ if it will freak them out or not.  I hope they like it because that would make her very happy.
Okay, I'm unfocusing again... so I'm going to go and get things done.  Miss you and Hugz to all****


Monday, May 14, 2007

Hullo :)

tag by Chris at Cab's Creations.
Good Afternoon all !
I hope this entry finds everyone happy, healthy and if not in peace, then semblance of it.
Things are going fine here, Cindy and I are almost completely over our colds ~ I still have a bit of a cough, but other than that it's gone!
I was off of work yesterday but C and I were busy because it was both Mother's Day and her Nephew's Birthday... so we all got together at the park and had a BBQ and the kids all played for awhile.  It was a nice afternoon, the only thing I would have truly changed would have been the weather ~ it was dreadfully hot unless you were in the shade and that's where I put my butt and stayed all afternoon  LOL.
Today? well, I went and had a manicure & came right home.  I was boiling alive I swear... from my communications with Cindy today she's having a day also where her brain isn't cooperating with her either so I don't feel so bad!  Right at the moment I'm doing laundry, straightening up the house & getting ready to do dishes and start dinner.
Friday night, I was on my way home from work, this was about 9:30 or so and on one of the back roads that I take to come home on, these 2 huge 4 wheel drive pick up's got on my bumper, the speed limit on that road is only 30 mph, it's a dangerous road, no stripes on the road, no lights, no nothing, it's completely black out there; Well, this idiot right on my butt had his bright lights on and it was blinding me completely, I slowed down even more so maybe he would pass me, onthat road there is nowhere to pull off the road at all, there is a upward hill on one side and a steep incline on the other and it's very curvy, he started flashing his headlights at me, well the reason the fool had his bright's on was because one of his headlights was out! Needless to say he almost made me run off the road a couple times - we got up to the stop sign where I had to turn onto another road just like the one I had just been on & I sat for a moment or two hoping that he would just pull around me and his butthead of a friend that was driving right behind him.  Well, he didn't..he just stayed glued to my bumper - finally a little bit down that road (speed limit here was 40 mph & a double solid stripe yellow line) he & the truck behind me, roared passed me nearly shoving me into another ditch!!  Scared me to death.. I started crying on the phone with Cindy because I was so scared.  I mean, I'm in the middle of the boonies and no one else around...what if something had happened? what if they were gun happy, muggers, rapists or something?  Good thing is Cindy knew where I was so she would have come if I needed her - though by then it may have been too late if these idiots were anything like what I mentioned above.  I was so relieved when they passed me though.  I was a nervous wreck by the time I got home.
Ok, I'm going to go for now - I need to get some more things done and I hope you all have a wonderful evening.
Miss you all and Hugs*******


Wednesday, May 9, 2007

Checking in

Artwork is Fiery Bonsai by Bill Anders
(have to find the link for his work will insert later)
Hello All :)
Just a quickie here - to let you all know how life is going.
I've still got that damned cold and now Cindy dear has it also - and She's not cursing me for it :)  isn't that nice?? It has settled in my chest mainly and if I'm not careful it will develop into bronchitis :(  Cindy's has settled in her head (shaking head).
The "Babies"  (all the critters) are doing fine, happy- healthy but NOT wise LOL.
Work is there... but glad I have one :)
I'm going to have to go for right now, need to get things done before getting ready for work.  I miss you all**

Sunday, May 6, 2007

Hey I'm doing a actual "Meme"  LOL - wouldn't you know that it's a long one??  I haven't done one of these in MONTHS.  This one is via Angela at "Dazzling Designs" aka ChillnnJville (gosh I hope I spelled that right) and thanks to Dianna for the Tag. Ok, here goes...

1. What time did you get up this morning?   6:30 A.M. 

2. Diamonds or Pearls?  Either, Or... I like both, as long as they are tasteful.

3. What was the last film you saw at the cinema?  Hannibal Rising 

4. What is your favorite TV show?  Hmmmm I have many - Ghost Whisperer, Most Haunted, Ugly Betty, CSI, CSI Miami, NCIS, Criminal Minds, The Unit, Rock Star (when it's on), Paula Dean's Home Cooking, Iron Chef America, The Sci Fi Channel etc.

5. What did you have for breakfast?  IHOP and ewwwwwww.

6. What is your middle name?  Lenora

7. What is your favorite cuisine? Seafood, Italian, Chinese, Southern, "American", English/Scottish, Hungarian.

8. What foods do you dislike?   Anything Spicy, Mexican foods, German - I know there are more, just can't think of them right at the moment.

9. Your favorite Potato chips? Lays Kettle Chips Original

10. What cd have you been listening to lately? I haven't. 

11. What kind of car do you drive?  One with four wheels and is paid for ROFL.

12. Favorite sandwich?  Schlotzsky's Roast Beef Sandwich without Cheese, w/ lettuce, onion and extra mayo :)

13. What characteristics do you despise? Mean People, Gossipers, Nosy People.

14. What are your favorite clothes? Anything

15. If you could go anywhere in the world on vacation, where would you go? England, Scotland, Ireland & Hungary. (Oh and of course Wales, had to add that, Margo reminded me LOL)

16. Favorite brand of clothing? I'd have to say Coldwater Creek.

17. Where would you want to retire? Where ever my Cindy is.

18. Favorite time of day? Dawn and Dusk

19. Where were you born?  U.S. of A. :)

20. What is your favorite sport to watch? I don't like sports.

21. Who do you think will not send this back? I dunno

22. Person you expect to send it back first? I don't know.

23. Pepsi or Coke?  Diet Coke or Diet Canada Dry Ginger Ale.

24. Beavers or Ducks? Either, Or...

25. Are you a morning person or night owl? neither ROFL

26. Pedicure or Manicure?  both

27. Any new and exciting news you'd like to share? Nope

28. What did you want to be when you were little? A ballet dancer, a nun (I liked the outfit), choreographer, Archeologist lol

29. What is your best childhood memory? not awnsering this one.

30. Have you ever been toilet papering? No

31. Been in a car accident? a couple of fender benders, that's all.

32. Favorite restaurant? Joe's Crab Shack & Willie G's in Galveston.

33. Favorite flower?  Tulips, Daffodils, Crocus, Roses, Wisteria.

34. Favorite ice cream?  Pralines and Cream

35. Favorite fast food restaurant? McDonald's

36. How many times did you fail your drivers test? None

37. From whom did you get your last e-mail? Russ

38. Which store would you choose to max out your credit card? Coldwater Creek, Pier One to name a couple. (actually I wouldn't do this unless I was rich, too much trouble to have to have the bills every month because I wasn't able to control myself)

39. Who are you most curious about their responses to this? Of Course, Everyone

40. Last person you went to dinner with?  My Cindy

41. How many tattoos do you have? None

42. How many people are you sending this to? To whoever reads the journal LOL

43. What time did you finish this e-mail?  7:06 PM

44. Favorite magazine?  Don't have one really if I had to chose it would be National Geographic & The Smithsonian.

45. If you could meet any famous person, who would it be? No one impresses me enough to want to meet them.

46. If you could change your profession right now, what would you be doing? I would be a University Level Pre 19th Century European History Professor or a Parapsychologist or a Archeologist.


FYI - and no, it's not a bluff...

Ok, this is a copy of a email a very trusted friend of mine sent me and no, it is not a hoax, I tried it and it works....

I'm making a entry of this because there are people that read my journal but I don't know their names or anything because they don't comment, just read.  Pass this on to your friends and family ok?


  Hello All

Apparently this is true, I've tried it and it worked on mine, so you might want to pass this on to others & bring it to their attention also...this came from a very trusted friend of mine so follow as you will ~
Hugz*** Teresa
Please, forward this to all in your address book. 

Google has implemented a new feature which enables you to type a
number into the search bar and hit enter and you will be given the
name and address. If you then hit MapQuest, you will get a map to the
person's house. Everyone should be aware of this! It's a nationwide
telephone book.

If a child gives out his/her phone number, someone can now look it up to
find out where he/she lives. The safety issues are obvious, and

Note that you can have your phone number removed or blocked. I tried my
number and it came up along with the mapquest and directions straight
to our
house. I did fill out the removal form for myself, and encourage all
of you
to do the same. Quite scary.

Please look up your own number.
In order to test whether your phone number is mapped, go to: google Type your phone number in the search bar
(i.e.555-555-1212) and hit enter. If you want to BLOCK Google from
your private information, simply click on your telephone number and then
click on the Removal Form. Removal takes 48-hours.

Check your own number and although this may not apply to you if you
have an
unlisted number or cell phone as primary contact, but you may know
who needs to know this.

Please share this information with friends and family.




Texas Long Horn Trivia - and no, not the University/College.


Here's a link to info about the Texas Long Horn breed of cattle...

Did you know their horns grow to 6 feet or MORE? that is across from tip to tip....

Texas Long Horn


Big Boy isn't he????

This is what the baby one in the pic a couple entries below will grow up to be like :)

Meanderings and Trivialities


 Tag by Emmi at Sweet & Simple Pleasures


Hello all - finally I'm taking time (actually "having" the time is more like it) to write down a few things :)

First of all, things have been kind of hectic around here - my car had to go in the shop for some work - 1) the flywheel in my transmission was cracked, so instead of putting it off and risking the flywheel breaking and therefore tearing into my transmission pump, we decided to spend $350 vs. the $2100 it would have taken had that happened.  And I also had to have the "idle control valve" because that was clogged with carbon and not allowing my engine to run correctly, it also was affecting the a/c which simply won't do for me (any of you knowing me will know I hate the heat and humidity). Baby Bella (my car's name) is now running very nicely thank you :)  It's running much more efficiently now and smooth as buttah <g>.

Second of all - work, it's been crazy and by the time I get home I'm pooped.  I think of things I want to write in the journal all the time when I'm away from home, yet when it came down to me actually sitting down and writing, those thoughts went right out the proverbial window of my mind.  I need to start toting around a tape recorder with me and just record the thoughts when I have them  LOL.  It would help so much... I mean heck, even I think I have some pretty deep and soulful thoughts at time, I just wish they'd stick around longer ROFL.  Sheesh.

Thirdly?  I have had a cold from utter hades this past week...and feeling utterly miserable in the process.  I know I got it at work - that's what happens when you are around a lot of people and touching things that they have touched.  It always gets worse at night (I still have it by the way) and settles in my chest mainly and I hate that feeling.  You wake up coughing so hard you feel like you aregoing to expire a lung or something.  But?  I am feeling better today, let's just hope it continues that way.

I missed CSI thursday :(  I was bummed, I took my cold med's and promptly fell asleep just as it was about to come on and I didn't have the recorder set. Damn it.

I have a couple of "Meme's" that I would like to get done today - I promise I will try and to attempt to write more things and thoughts.

Miss you all**



Lares and Draco update photo's :)

Ok, here's a Lares and Draco update - plus a couple of "extra's" LOL
In these photo's Lares and Draco are about 20 weeks old, (That's my Cindy lol -  growing like the proverbial weed.
This is a 5 month old Texas Longhorn on Cindy's parent's ranch...We "introduced" Lares and Draco to him, as the calf came running up to the fence line, Lares and Draco turned into pansies ROFL.