Saturday, June 21, 2008


Hope everyone is having a good weekend!
Not much going on in this little corner of the world, worked today at lunch, came home and watched some of a movie with Cindy then I cooked dinner ~ Fried Catfish, Hush puppies, vegi...she took the leftover's over to her Mom's lol.
Been feeling kind of down the last couple days and not sure why.  A heaviness inside of me.  It doesn't have anything to do with Cindy or I ~ maybe it's just "life".
Work is fine, so it's not that - other than my impatience with incompetence.  Bugs me when people do things half assed when it's much easier to do things correctly the first time, you know?  I know that I'm not perfect by any means but at least I make the effort to try to NOT be incompetent.
It's blazingly hot these days and even when it rains (which I usually look forward to) I know within an hour or so after the rain it's going to be a sauna outside and no matter what it leaks it's way inside our home.
Okay, since I can't seem to find anything positive to say I guess I will go ~ I hope all of you are safe and happy**

Thursday, June 19, 2008

Hey it's me, without a music video LOL.  Sorry about that, I haven't felt like writing much of anything in depth.  With getting over the final stages of the flu, working, getting things caught up around here (home) I haven't felt like it.  You know me and that focus thing.
Cindy and I finally got the hallway finished pretty much, it's painted now and it looks really nice, my baby did a great job!!  there are a couple of areas that need touch ups but other than that and putting the door sills back up and replacing the door that covers the furnace and the a/c it will be finished - oh and putting up the rest of the hallway light. 
Today I'm waiting on the man to come and install the second window in the bathroom, the next window is one in Cindy's office then we are tackling the living room windows.  As far as the kitchen for big projects that's the next room where we are tearing out the paneling and putting up drywall and painting it.  Taking it one day at a time and not becoming a nervous wreck about it.
Work has been steady, not crazy so that's a good thing.  My boss has been gone on vacation for the past 10 days and just got back today... I knew he'd have a fit  lol.  The "newbies" have not been doing their jobs right and he finally saw it today.  To say the least my boss was not happy.  But he was really happy to see me and was glad I was feeling better.  Hopefully things will straighten themselves out with him being back.
Cindy has been really busy at work - and it's been really hot here.  Yesterday the temp in the building she works in got to 121 degrees with full humidity.  It's been almost as bad here... 100 plus degrees.  Draco and Lares don't even want to go out except for very quick potty calls.  They go out for longer periods in the evening when it get's cooler (80's is cooler).
Guess I will go for now.  Everyone take care***

Wednesday, June 18, 2008

I don't know how many of you like/adore/hate Opera... it's a enjoyment of mine when the mood strikes.  I must say that I do not like German Opera very much, the only reason I can explain it is that to me it is harsh.  I enjoy Italian Opera mostly when it crosses my mind set.  Pavarotti who passed away this past year was one of the most fabulous Tenors that ever sang in my opinion.  This video is him singing "Nassun Dorma" in New York the year 1980, it is from Calif's Aria from Puccini's Turandot.  Below the video is the Italian translated into english.  I hope some of you enjoy. For me? it is emotional and I cry listening to it.




Italian Text

Nessun dorma! Nessun dorma!
Tu pure, o, Principessa,
nella tua fredda stanza,
guardi le stelle
che tremano d'amore
e di speranza.
Ma il mio mistero è chiuso in me,
il nome mio nessun saprà!
No, no, sulla tua bocca lo dirò
quando la luce splenderà!
Ed il mio bacio scioglierà il silenzio
che ti fa mia!
(Il nome suo nessun saprà!...
e noi dovrem, ahime, morir!)
Dilegua, o notte!
Tramontate, stelle!
Tramontate, stelle!
All'alba vincerò!
vincerò, vincerò!

English Translation of "Nessun Dorma"

Nobody shall sleep!...
Nobody shall sleep!
Even you, o Princess,
in your cold room,
watch the stars,
that tremble with love and with hope.
But my secret is hidden within me,
my name no one shall know...
On your mouth I will tell it when the light shines.
And my kiss will dissolve the silence that makes you mine!...
(No one will know his name and we must, alas, die.)
Vanish, o night!
Set, stars! Set, stars!
At dawn, I will win! I will win! I will win!

dang it, it didn't work the last entry so I'm trying again... once again, this is the SNL's version of Blue Oyster Cult's "Don't Fear The Reaper" and the "I need more cowbell" sketch, Connie my good friend that I met online ages ago and who has a private journal sent me this... Thank you Connie :)  Hugz*** Teresa

P.S. Note ~ I can't embed it so I'm including the link...go see it if you want to.



Friday, June 13, 2008

An oblique "i see you" to the certain someone's reading from Arizona/New Mexico...

:::laughing:::  private joke... and believe me, it's a JOKE!!!

That comment was aimed at a certain person or persons... they knew who they are ~

One more for today ~

Okay, this is my last one for today ~ I'll do these things as the mood strikes me...
Led Zeppelin ~ I love 'em ~ I know Connie has great memories of this  Like I've said before and probably will many times again... I miss those days (sometimes).
Led Zeppelin ~ from their Album "Led Zeppelin IV" released in 1971...

Stairway to Heaven
There's a lady who's sure all that glitters is gold
And she's buying a stairway to heaven.
When she gets there she knows, if the stores are all closed
With a word she can get what she came for.
Ooh, ooh, and she's buying a stairway to heaven.

There's a sign on the wall but she wants to be sure
'Cause you know sometimes words have two meanings.
In a tree by the brook, there's a songbird who sings,
Sometimes all of our thoughts are misgiven.
Ooh, it makes me wonder,
Ooh, it makes me wonder.

There's a feeling I get when I look to the west,
And my spirit is crying for leaving.
In my thoughts I have seen rings of smoke through the trees,
And the voices of those who standing looking.
Ooh, it makes me wonder,
Ooh, it really makes me wonder.

And it's whispered that soon if we all call the tune
Then the piper will lead us to reason.
And a new day will dawn for those who stand long
And the forests will echo with laughter.

If there's a bustle in your hedgerow, don't be alarmed now,
It's just a spring clean for the May queen.
Yes, there are two paths you can go by, but in the long run
There's still time to change the road you're on.
And it makes me wonder.

Your head is humming and it won't go, in case you don't know,
The piper's calling you to join him,
Dear lady, can you hear the wind blow, and did you know
Your stairway lies on the whispering wind.

And as we wind on down the road
Our shadows taller than our soul.
There walks a lady we all know
Who shines white light and wants to show
How everything still turns to gold.
And if you listen very hard
The tune will come to you at last.
When all are one and one is all
To be a rock and not to roll.

And she's buying a stairway to heaven.

Okay, another "flashback"

Okay, I'm having "flashbacks" to the oldies but still truly excellent and great music groups from when I was growing up and a teenager/early twenties...
This group "Blue Oyster Cult" I loved, I'd listen to this one song of theirs while I played "Dungeon's and Dragon's" lol ~ I'd play that role game for hours with friends, yes, I was one of those "geeks" still am I guess! because even though I haven't played that game in years, I'd still do it.  It was a great escape and I went somewhere else for a little while, lands that didn't exist anywhere but in mine and my friends heads.  A happy time.
Enjoy! or at least I hope you do.

Don't Fear The Reaper by Blue Oyster Cult
All our times have come
Here but now they're gone
Seasons don't fear the reaper
Nor do the wind, the sun or the rain..we can be like they are
Come on baby...don't fear the reaper
Baby take my hand...don't fear the reaper
We'll be able to fly...don't fear the reaper
Baby I'm your man...

Valentine is done
Here but now they're gone
Romeo and Juliet
Are together in eternity...Romeo and Juliet
40,000 men and women everyday...Like Romeo and Juliet
40,000 men and women everyday...Redefine happiness
Another 40,000 coming everyday...We can be like they are
Come on baby...don't fear the reaper
Baby take my hand...don't fear the reaper
We'll be able to fly...don't fear the reaper
Baby I'm your man...

Love of two is one
Here but now they're gone
Came the last night of sadness
And it was clear she couldn't go on
Then the door was open and the wind appeared
The candles blew then disappeared
The curtains flew then he appeared...saying don't be afraid
Come on baby...and she had no fear
And she ran to him...then they started to fly
They looked backward and said goodbye...she had become like they are
She had taken his hand...she had become like they are
Come on baby...don't fear the reaper
From their "Agents of Fortune" 1976 Album



Good Morning everyone !
Well, I'm feeling much better these last couple days, still coughing because my lungs still have the "crackles" in them and I seem to tire a lot easier.  Went to work yesterday for the first time for a full shift and by the time I was cut off of the floor I was having a hard time of it. But ~ I made it. So that's a good thing.
On the way home though that was bad ~ mainly because someone pulled out in front of me at a intersection and I clipped them, luckily I had seen them starting to pull into the path of traffic (they were coming from the opposite direction than I and were at a stop light right turn of those arrow thingies that flashes yellow meaning "yield to oncoming traffic, only make the turn if the path is clear" well, they didn't wait.  I had a concrete median to MY left and someone right on my butt, and two lanes of traffic to my right and I couldn't stop without creating another accident.  Anyway, I had been watching them as I approached the intersection and saw that they were going to pull across the intersection, I had managed to slow down a little bit, then they pulled fully in front of me making their turn and I had to really slam on the brakes, I managed to control my car enough to where it pulled only a little to the left (remember, someone was right on my bumper almost) there was oncoming traffic, a concrete median... so I only "bumped" them in the bumper area. I had to continue on and try to get over to the far right lane because I couldn't just stop in traffic... and there was no left turn lane to turn from in this part of the road. So I pulled over into the far right lane and pulled into a parking lot, got out checked what damage there was (believe me at this point I was in a little bit of shock) luckily, only the right turn signal light cover had been popped off with my bumping of this person's rear portion of car - if I had not been paying attention and saw this person start to pull in front of me I would have broadsided them because there would have been no way I could have stopped in time or avoided them. Anyway, I got my wits together got back in the car, pulled out of the parking lot and did a u turn at the next intersection and went back to where this had happened, there was no one there.  THAT pissed me off, the idiot.  Could have killed someone!!!!!  So I just came home.  I had my bluetooth on and had been talking to Cindy while this was going on and I had been so damn calm about the whole thing she didn't even know anything had happened!!  Until I said some asshole (excuse my language) had pulled in front of me and two other lanes of traffic and I had clipped them.  She didn't have time to talk "had people all over her" so I said "f**k it" to myself ::: you know what everyone? I never/rarely cursed until I was around Cindy & no I'm not complaining, it was I was brought up NOT to cuss, my mother would have whacked me upside the head for doing so ::: and I told her I was sorry to bother her and I'd talk to her later and I hung up.  So I drove home kind of numb in a way.  I was VERY lucky that it hadn't been worse, as it is it will cost about $25 to replace the right turn lane signal cover and that's all the damage that was done.  I guess it does pay to be a defensive driver doesn't it?  I sure as heck didn't feel like cooking dinner when I got home so I didn't.  I will cook tonight ~ Pork Butt Roast with homemade mashed potatoes and some kind of vegi. 
That's enough for now ~ going to go.  Hope everyone has a good day. 

Wednesday, June 11, 2008

Another flashback ~ even earlier times

The Doors ~ Light My Fire with the AWESOME Jim Morrison ~ The Lizard King himself... it is so sad that his brilliance was eclipsed by his alcohol and drug abuse, they extinguished  his light.


Flashback to Highschool and college ~ 1978

Remember this group from the 40 something's out there?  Foghat ~ SLOW Ride... Why aren't there groups out there anymore making great music like this??? I miss it!

Sunday, June 8, 2008


The artwork in this entry is by a artist called  Guillermo Portieles ~ the pieces are called Nature in Balance I and II.
I was reading back over my journal since I started this one & I realized how many times I repeat myself or blah, blah, blah about the same old thing over and over.  It made me sad and anxious.  I was thinking don't I have anything more in my life than the humdrum of existence?  I still have the anger now as I did then about some issues, I still have the same freaking "issues" period!    I don't understand if that means I'm not growing or am I stagnant? Am I merely so used to thinking one way that I can't break out of it? or have trouble doing so?
I don't know, will have to think about things I guess.
Cindy is in the hallway currently applying primer to the walls, once that's dried she will paint them (Draco and Lares are being her "assistants" lol ) ~ we picked a color called "hot chocolate" it's a warm brown color and since she and I both like dark colors this will be nice.  She's doing a great job and I'm proud of her.  Later on I'm going to haul my rear end out of this house with her and go grocery shopping, we haven't been since I've been ill and I don't trust her to go by herself LOL I use a list and she buys whatever catches her eye ~ I know everything that is in the pantry and fridge/freezer ~ so I purchase according to what is already existing to make meals and what we are out of for ex: staples, milk, eggs etc. She hates grocery shopping, I enjoy it.  I'm feeling very tired so I don't know what's going to finally come of the grocery shopping, I think I have energy then I actually move around and try to do things and I realize how out of it I really am.
Guess I will go for now, will get around to the journals sometime this week ~ Till later*

Saturday, June 7, 2008


Hello everyone.
I think this flu bug is finally lifting it's heavy load off of my chest!  This sucker has really walloped me and I feel weak as a newborn kitten.  I've had something like this before (if not the very same thing) about 4 years ago, at that time I was sick for a month and during that time I was in the emergency room  3 or 4 times because my fever would get so high for ex:  104* and going up and up ~ my lungs seized because the muscles were so sore from coughing that they had to give me sugar water with morphine via IV to help me breathe.  My fever this time got as high as almost 103* and my lungs didn't seize so that's a good thing right?
I've had my journal alerts off for a while since I've been ill ~ I wasn't able to go to the journal entries and read them, I didn't have the energy, my concentration is bad enough in the normal realm of things let alone running a fever and all the other hullabaloo that goes along with this flu, that's why there have been no comments from me the last couple weeks.
I'm very thankful I have a boss that is so very understanding, hopefully I will be back to normal by next Tuesday and I can get back to work and to some sense of normalcy.  I'm on all day shifts now so that's a good thing... I really, really dislike working the night shifts as you all know that  have read my journal long enough ~ can't stand the drunkenness and drinking that goes on at nights, not to mention the servers that work at night are very cliche - ey and think they are way above the day time servers, I could run circles around those young one's if they but knew it.
It's been extremely hot here the past 2 to 3 weeks...upper 90's and full humidity, it's awful, you can hardly breathe when you go outside and talk about draining??? it's like a blasted sponge.  Yes, you will hear me bitch and moan about the weather until it starts to change in late September LOL you know I hate the heat.
Lares and Draco, Heathen and Kizmet are doing well ~ the boys don't like the heat either, they go out to the run and do their "business" then they come right back in ~ they stay out a little longer first thing in the morning and for a little bit at night, the morning's are the coolest time because at night the heat just settles down hard and heavy.
Ok, I'm tired ~ typing this little bit has drained me forget even thinking about the "thinking" required.

Wednesday, June 4, 2008


This is going to be a short entry but I wanted to let you know that I'm still down with this flu bug.  I went in to work yesterday and it did me in, tried to go in again today and my boss sent me back home and told me to get completely better before I come back and he was being a sweetheart about it not being a boo head, he's a honey bear.
Not this past weekend but the weekend before (when I first started feeling sick) Cindy and I tore out the paneling in the hallway and put up sheetrock ~ Cindy did most of it I helped where I could, both of us couldn't fit in the hallway with the ladder and everything else that was in there but it was done and got the seams etc. plastered and sanded ~ now it needs another coat of plaster on the seams and a final sanding then we will prime the walls and paint them.  The day before yesterday we got the first of the new windows in and it looks great.  I was ready to lay down and croak about that point but thankfully the guy only took about an hour and I was able to lay down after that, the fever part of this flu is what's draining my butt ~ that and the hacking up a lung in the middle of the night. ughhhhhh.  I hope it's better soon.
Hope everyone is doing great ~ will come back when I feel better....Hugz*