A Entry

 

Bright the day to everyone,

Hope all is going at least decently in your corner of the world where ever that may be.

Haven't written in a few days reason being is I haven't felt like it, burying myself under a wood pile you could say.

One good thing that has been happening is the last few days we've gotten plenty of rain!  That's a very good thing as we were pretty much in draught conditions before this happened, hopefully The Lady will keep encouraging it in this little bit of the Cosmos.  We always need it!  Another good thing is the temperatures have been steadily dropping a degree at a time, bad thing is the humidity when it's not been raining has been astronomical!  You can definitely tell hopefully that the worst of the heat is passing for the Summer.  Here comes Autumn!!  Yippee!!!  Love it in that aspect.

Cindy has been really busy at her work ~ dealing with crap like the rest of us have to at times, her's has to do with her being a woman in her profession and her Superiors at time's second guessing her or treating her like she doesn't know what she is talking about...thing is she knows more about her profession than many of the Male Chauvinists that are out there strutting about trying to establish themselves as "men" ~ oxymoron if you ask me.  Idiots.

My work has been increasing in the amount of stress that is going on there.  Employees are quitting right and left ~ seems like management would buy a "clue" and realize that there is something bad going on there and do something about it.  Even the employees that have been there for a couple years (which in this profession is a lONG time to stay in any one place for any amount of time) are leaving.  All I can do is keep trying to do my job and leaving at the end of my shifts.   Yes, the tension is affecting me and my ability to do my job as well as I normally would, yet there isn't anything really I can do about it.  It's starting to make me doubt myself and my knowledge of doing this kind of work.  Maybe it's time for me to think about finding some other kind of career?  I don't know.  What I do know is that I'm getting older and in this profession it get's hard to find a job where so many prefer younger, more attractive women to be server's.

As far as Heathen? I think, as much as I don't want to think about it and believe me I've been doing a lot of thinking about it with lots of pain and heartache.  He's losing more and more control of his back legs, yes, he's eating and drinking but what good does that do if it takes so much out of him to just GET to the water bowl and his food?  I don't know what to do but I am watching him very closely for the signs.  I will be having my Baby cremated when the time comes and he will be kept in a special urn..he will not be scattered or anything like that, he will stay on my Altar and WITH me.  Others may not understand this & may think it is morbid but it is my choice.  No one else's.  I don't expect others to understand my standing on this, just respect it.

Lares and Draco have been miserable with the rain even though we needed it so much, they haven't been able to get out and play ~ hence the fact they are driving C and I nuts LOL.  goof balls they are but so very loving.

I guess that's it for now.