hello everyone ~

 

This morning has been finding me way down in the doldrums, not sure why ~ worry, stress, PMS again...a hodgepodge of things that aren't sitting right within me.

Been off of work yesterday, today and most probably tomorrow also, but my bosses swear that everything's alright; they had the head honcho show up this past Wednesday so the schedule for everyone has been thrown into the winds and no one knows when they are working or when they are not, I don't feel that much badly knowing everyone at work is in the same situation as I am.  It's all about profit and cutting down on staff offers in order to make said profit.  Hope they get their heads out of their ass soon.  I hate not knowing what's going on day to day, esp with work.

I've had nightmares for the past two nights or so ~ therein i haven't been sleeping well and been waking up with sweats and my back killing me in the process.  Had to take two klonopin this morning to just calm the anxiety/panic going on inside of me and no, it's not all because of work ~ my emotions seem to be right on my shoulder right now and it's very uncomfortable.

Yes, this is a "whiney" entry, but at least I get some of these things off of my "chest" per sae.  Not sure how much writing will help for the underlying crap is still there no matter what.

There are so many things that I worry about, probably things I shouldn't worry about, things that irritate me and things that just damned well pisses me off.

 

 

(1)  gas prices and the convoluted profits that oil companies are bragging about.  What get's me ?  is the fact that we have oil refineries not a hour to two hours away and still the gas prices go up and up and those asshole  CEO's within Exxon, Chevron and Shell (the top three moneymakers) BRAG about this shyt.  Must say they have balls to be able to do so.  We have oil in peoples back yards here just going to waste because of Pres. Carters NASDAQ agreement. WE have oil in our own back yards with the rig's already set up... and because of that agreement with NASDAQ, it can't be touched...because the agreement was to purchase oil form the Saudi Oil Meatheads over there.  Let alone the oil available from South America and in Mexico.  It's THERE  ~ but we can't touch it because of government and politics.  Maybe if Mexico would actually do something about their oil overload they might make something of their country ~ get rid of the corruption and stop the illegal immigrants from coming this country to take jobs and lower wages for American Workers. But that's just my little ideas.  I also believe that car manufacturers should be MADE to do something about the size of vehicles they make and how to establish control about gas use.  Make the vehicles more car efficient, if anything charge any of those people that choose to use those huge monstrosities pay extra for their gas and the one's that are being responsible and purchasing hybrid cars, or more fuel efficient cars cheaper prices. grrrrrrrrrrr.  Getting off of that soap box.

 

(2)  Politics ~ I'm freaking sick of them all.  They will be lucky if I vote at all with all the name calling, bickering, backstabbing etc. that's happening.  I'm ready to tell them all to stuff themselves.

 

Okay, that's enough...I'm just in a really down mood today and I cried on the phone with Cindy...I don't think she knows quite what to do with me when I'm in these places in my head.

Blessings*